It wasn't really a good time for me.
Even for now ..
So YES!
I am already graduated with Merit in Advanced Diploma in Commerce (Management Accounting) from TAR College (Now known as TAR University College).
So my current working life is like kinda .. erm .. dull .. ?
But I still go to the gym everyday.
You heard me right!
Am working as an Accounts Executive and yet still hitting gym everyday.
Colleagues from other departments still doubt about my background ._.
Why? Combination of an Account Executive and a bodybuilder? Why not?!
Please forgive my brief story as I don't really know what should I talk about for my current working life. I am still uncertain of my future and when things getting clear, I'll get a detailed update here.
What's next?
I went to sleep over my best friend Dumbo's place there. So we had some chit chat and I wasn't playing attention cause I was like a little bit of mind absent.
So he told me that I am actually gaining size and of course I love to hear that.
The next thing he told me was that I had some changes for my body size and of course the biggest change in me was, I didn't get so freaking emotional like last time.
In short, my frequency of getting emo is actually getting lesser comparing to last time.
And last time I was like, *WTH with this person keep on being emo emo emo*
I'm sure you would say like that if you were one of my friends staying around me.
Is it really true? Dumbo told me that perhaps it was due to the reason that working actually distracted me and I spent most of my time in working and in the gym as well.
I didn't have the guts to tell him that you don't know freaking emo I am everyday spending my time inside the car, stuck in the traffic jams, 45 minutes traveling to company and 1 hour traveling back to home.
This life is sickening me day by day. I see no challenge in my work, I see no future development for my personal portfolio. I need a better job, a more challenging job.
I was being qualified into top 70 out of 2,700 applicants during Maybank Go Ahead Challenge 2013 (National Level - Malaysia). Only 59 showed up and 23 got eliminated in the first round.
I got into top 36 and I fought hard to try my best to get into top 36.
And unfortunately I failed when it came to last round which is a debate session.
You could easily see I was shaking due to over tension if you were sitting beside me ..
Competition ended and I went back home with depression that haunted me for a night.
I asked myself that night, why did I so afraid arguing with others?
The next day I woke up with a stronger will and spirit. The competition actually awakens the beast within me.
BEAST ?!
The desire of this beast of wanted to have more advanced to desire of getting fame, desire of sending my name Peter Goh into this competitive commercial world and to shake the commercial world.
*Bullshit*
Yea right, but I really wanted to have more advancement you know >_<
So my conclusion, I shall wait till I get my CIMA qualification and I shall rock the world after that!
Lastly,
It's regarding my relationship.
Been single for quite a long time. If you were to ask me that am I getting lonely because I am single, my answer would be a N-O, NO.
Physically lonely? Nope I got works, gym and friends around me.
Mentally lonely? Well what answer should I give?
The best answer should be in half I supposed.
I am a Christian. I know God is preparing a something good for me.
Reason why? The best thing always takes a longer time to get prepared.
So I have to be patient enough to meet The One that He's preparing for me.
Well on the other hand, sometimes you know, you will get not comfortable seeing couples around every time you go out for some outing or gathering.
When you are single, you see happy couples around.
When you are in a relationship, you see happy singles around.
From Alex Chin,
God always has bigger and better plan for you.
From Peter Goh,
Have faith!
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
Tuesday, 16 April 2013
This mirror reflects everything.
"Are you okay, Peter?"
No, I am not.
Cause deep down inside, I wish I could fade away.
I wish to escape to overseas.
I wish to escape from the earth.
I wish to have my memories erased.
I wish I am not Peter.
You thought I am strong, confident, smart or whatsoever, those are only my covers to hide my weak and durable side.
Have you thought of getting a second life all the time? Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
Are you really the cure?
No, I am not.
Cause deep down inside, I wish I could fade away.
I wish to escape to overseas.
I wish to escape from the earth.
I wish to have my memories erased.
I wish I am not Peter.
You thought I am strong, confident, smart or whatsoever, those are only my covers to hide my weak and durable side.
Have you thought of getting a second life all the time? Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
Are you really the cure?
Tuesday, 19 March 2013
Cause you're my special things, I'm flying without wings.
[Shane:]
Everybody's looking for a something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
[Mark:]
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much it means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
So, impossible as it may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
‘Cause who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete
[Shane:]
Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place
[Mark:]
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
‘Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings
[Shane:]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
[Mark:]
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings
I love all of you.
My diploma friends, the mighty Fabulous Four
My advanced diploma friends, the Marvellous Five
My friends from AMA Group 3, AhGang
My all AMA imba crazy amazing awesome friends!
Sunday, 24 February 2013
其实我
其实 你知道吗 ..
其实 我 .. 不大会说话 ..
其实 我 .. 很紧张 ..
其实 我 .. 心想 像我这么一位平凡普通的男生 .. 你应该 不会 注意到我吧 ..
其实 我 .. 很木头 ..
其实 我 .. 一紧张 .. 就 一直灌水 .. 然后 要一直上厕所 ..
其实 我 真的 很 笨 ..
其实 我 真的 很 在意 ..
其实 我 .. 不大会说话 ..
其实 我 .. 很紧张 ..
其实 我 .. 心想 像我这么一位平凡普通的男生 .. 你应该 不会 注意到我吧 ..
其实 我 .. 很木头 ..
其实 我 .. 一紧张 .. 就 一直灌水 .. 然后 要一直上厕所 ..
其实 我 真的 很 笨 ..
其实 我 真的 很 在意 ..
Monday, 28 January 2013
When passion meets obstacles.
Thought of giving up my bodybuilding recently.
Perhaps girls don't like big size or bulky guys. They feel disgusting, or maybe even we are too obsessed with it.
Well, friends kept on telling me that:
Peter, you should stop getting big.
And I replied them that:
I have my regular meals and regular training but I never had the thought of getting big and its just getting big like it did.
Should I give up getting big? For the sake of girls don't like over big size guy? (I am not bragging this as I don't even think that I'm big enough to say that I'm big now, but this has been bothering me for quite some time)
What should I do?
I always have deep thinking when I am driving. And I always come out with sort of answers when I am driving.
So I finally got an answer for myself yesterday when I was driving.
I won't stop.
I'll find a girl who loves my passion and everything.
Even she is the one, I'll cut down my training and shall control my body size and try to be lean as much as possible, but I just won't stop. And I call this tolerating.
Lots of people think that I'll go for fitness girls. I don't, even if this girl doesn't like sport at all, I don't give a damn for it but all I care is about her inner and who am I when I am with her.
Gosh, it's too early for me to talk about all these things, so many people wanted to "enjoy" life for now, but I am now living as a healthy person as I want it to be.
I don't smoke.
I don't drink. (Unless forced by friends)
I don't gamble.
I only study, sleep, eat, workout and of course, watch movies.
This is me, everything normal and dull but all these make me today. Take it or leave it.
Bullshit huh?
When bodybuilding meets girls.
Perhaps girls don't like big size or bulky guys. They feel disgusting, or maybe even we are too obsessed with it.
Well, friends kept on telling me that:
Peter, you should stop getting big.
And I replied them that:
I have my regular meals and regular training but I never had the thought of getting big and its just getting big like it did.
Should I give up getting big? For the sake of girls don't like over big size guy? (I am not bragging this as I don't even think that I'm big enough to say that I'm big now, but this has been bothering me for quite some time)
What should I do?
I always have deep thinking when I am driving. And I always come out with sort of answers when I am driving.
So I finally got an answer for myself yesterday when I was driving.
I won't stop.
I'll find a girl who loves my passion and everything.
Even she is the one, I'll cut down my training and shall control my body size and try to be lean as much as possible, but I just won't stop. And I call this tolerating.
Lots of people think that I'll go for fitness girls. I don't, even if this girl doesn't like sport at all, I don't give a damn for it but all I care is about her inner and who am I when I am with her.
Gosh, it's too early for me to talk about all these things, so many people wanted to "enjoy" life for now, but I am now living as a healthy person as I want it to be.
I don't smoke.
I don't drink. (Unless forced by friends)
I don't gamble.
I only study, sleep, eat, workout and of course, watch movies.
This is me, everything normal and dull but all these make me today. Take it or leave it.
Bullshit huh?
When bodybuilding meets girls.
Thursday, 17 January 2013
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
My birthday.
13 January 1991
I was born on 13th January, year 1991.
Yes I am a January baby.
My Chinese Zodiac is Horse.
My constellation is Capricorn (摩羯座).
I've got a special number that I like the most, which is 3113. I guess most of the friends around know about it, actually got this number from the MMOPRG game that I used to play when I was form 3, MapleStory.
It was my glory time (to me myself), I've got a FireMage which I achieved level 107 when I was form 3, and I named my FireMage as "Mag3113", that's how I got the number 3113.
Anymore story regarding 113? Well, there are some, I reminiscence to few years back, how did she celebrate my birthday, with me. But these memories I will remain in somewhere else, deep in my memories.
I had to move on, I need to move on, I want to move on.
I guess, 2013 is one of the good year for my 113. I want to achieve my few goals, to pass at least 2 external papers for CIMA this year, to stay fit, and to achieve financial independence as family has done a lot for me, it's time for me to repay back.
And I think, I shall celebrate my birthday all alone this year. Decided to have a shopping day for myself, and enjoy some nice food around KL. (The girl is not in KL this weekend.)
And who gave birth to me? My lovely mum :) willing to do anything for her, love her forever. And thanks my family for everything.
So there's a little story here, I am not gonna reveal the whole story.
5 months.
CIMA.
The total number is 11.
And lastly, Aries.
I was born on 13th January, year 1991.
Yes I am a January baby.
My Chinese Zodiac is Horse.
My constellation is Capricorn (摩羯座).
I've got a special number that I like the most, which is 3113. I guess most of the friends around know about it, actually got this number from the MMOPRG game that I used to play when I was form 3, MapleStory.
It was my glory time (to me myself), I've got a FireMage which I achieved level 107 when I was form 3, and I named my FireMage as "Mag3113", that's how I got the number 3113.
Anymore story regarding 113? Well, there are some, I reminiscence to few years back, how did she celebrate my birthday, with me. But these memories I will remain in somewhere else, deep in my memories.
I had to move on, I need to move on, I want to move on.
I guess, 2013 is one of the good year for my 113. I want to achieve my few goals, to pass at least 2 external papers for CIMA this year, to stay fit, and to achieve financial independence as family has done a lot for me, it's time for me to repay back.
And I think, I shall celebrate my birthday all alone this year. Decided to have a shopping day for myself, and enjoy some nice food around KL. (The girl is not in KL this weekend.)
And who gave birth to me? My lovely mum :) willing to do anything for her, love her forever. And thanks my family for everything.
So there's a little story here, I am not gonna reveal the whole story.
5 months.
CIMA.
The total number is 11.
And lastly, Aries.
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