梦; 梦的点滴。(Drops of Dream)

与你相识的命运捉弄

比爱情更快地

改变了我的一切

坠入情网…

相识容易 但为何现在如此难过?

分分离离下 人们追逐爱情

多少夜晚 多少次泪眼盈眶

情感疏离的两人是分开? 还是在一起?

漂荡在这星球上

你我相遇

当指尖感觉到爱的存在

封闭的心就此打开

像巨浪 像深海

似阵风 想要紧紧拥抱你

在被爱中 我渐渐有了自已

紧紧地拥抱 融化了冰冻的心

决定不再见时

心中是否会隐隐作痛

在掌心凝视爱情

可以变的更自由

想要传达无限的思念

失去什么都无所谓

这份爱是我的一切 在这瞬间

如果出现了什么 那一定是…

红红的花瓣翩翩的飘落

绿叶上的雨滴

曾爱过你的梦的证明

在朝阳上消失殆尽

Letter to a friend.

To you, my good friend:

Heard that you're not doing fine recently, I don't know how to console you and you always say that I don't look for you when I have problems, unless there's something really big.

To be honest, you're the first girl who can read through my mind in the shortest time and understood me the most in the shortest time. Still remember the first day we had a talk, it was actually few days after my broke up, and I didn't know that you were so outgoing, awesome and lots of great things in you.

You are smart, you are hardworking, you love freedom, you love photographing, you love to swim, you love to travel, you love handsome guys, you love flirting around, you love doing crazy stuff, you love to play, you are who you are, you are the one which I think the most special and awesome female friend.

I am writing this, to tell you that you are awesome, don't let the tough times to beat you down, you are the one who is tough!

Short and simple friendship, yet I appreciate our friendship very much. It's not complicated, but it's one of the best things in my life to be your friend.

Right ?

Great friends.

Alex, Sylvia, Nicole and ChunYang (CY).

Saturday ? Hmmm :)

Woke up at 10.30am this early morning (urgh, not early at all?)

The very first thing I did was, turning on the desktop and started to play DotA. (Oh I didn't even wash up until I finished one round of DotA, what a dirty fellow =x)

So dad bought chicken rice for me and my little brother, Billy. Had a grateful lunch although it was just chicken rice. And later on 2pm I sent Billy to the tuition centre.

Right after I dropped him, I went to search for something important. Been searching for it for weeks! And it turned out to be disappointment to me when I couldn't find it in my little sweet town :( spent hours to search for it, but I just couldn't find any! Gotta try out my luck next week. It remains "something" until I found it, cause I don't really put any high hope on it.

And I actually spent lots of time doing research, non-stop researching, just to improve my understanding and also knowledge towards "it" and out of expectation, my bestie's little sister, Jing Yit whatsapp-ed me this afternoon while I was doing research. Ha! Didn't know that she actually knows a little bit about "it". Surprisingly, I felt being encouraged and so perhaps, we gotta do something crazy for few times in our lives right? (And I actually did a lot!)

Sent Billy to go for work this late evening and then went to grandma's house for dinner. Right after my dinner, I came back home and again, DotA .. DotA .. DotA .. What a miserable life I have, erm actually no, I do enjoy a lot playing computer game, it reminds me how obsessed I was in playing games! Still a big kid though?  Nah, reaching 22 in 2 months time!

Hereby, I wanna announce 2 good news. These are from them, my 2 besties.
First one, he got a new girlfriend, and it's a good news as he's been lost in somewhere else out of the earth for some time. May god bless your new relationship pal :D
And the second one, he just bought a new car by himself! What?! He's actually same age with me and he just bought a Vios G ..!! Oh well, down payment was 5 digits (try to have a lucky guess?) and he will pay the instalments for 3 years. He fought and worked hard for his career and only few know about it. Friends gonna be surprise soon, in Mentakab :)

Simple, and nothing much right? Yea cause I'm not a philosopher who can tells a lot of great stories, but just wanna share my nobody's business' story, it's my "A simple Saturday in Mentakab".
And somehow, this blog partly becomes my diary too!

Oops hang on! Look! My naked photo!

Just kidding, it's my actually very first time editing photos of myself. And of course I received lots of unpleasant comments such as:

Alex: normal guys don't do this, unless you are .. 

ChunYang: Gay

Jifeng: Gay

Gay: Gay

Gay: Gay

Gay: Gay

Gay: Gay

Gay: Gay

Alright, it's normal and beginner editing skills ._.

Cute right? She is Xiiao Wei :)

Photo day!

What a coincidence today!

Never thought of it.
Totally never thought of it.
And I really really never thought of it.
And I turned back.
______________________

So we actually played capturing photos today during the class.
We didn't take out any papers nor paying attention on the slides.
So this girl Xiiao Wei she was actually playing with the phone at first, then I came to join the partyyyyy.

So she was playing with the phone actually.

Oops she found out that I was taking her photos.

                                                         
Look at her cute expression. Haha!

                                                                          
Say cheese :D

*And she sent me a photo that made my day actually. Not her photo, but it was her photo.*

I have a dream.

20th November 2012
12pm - 2pm

As usual, I always leave my phone and my wallet on the table once I settle down in the lecture hall.
And as usual, I fell asleep during the lecture.
And as usual, friends took my phone and tried to "hack" my Facebook account by posting something funny on my Facebook wall.

"I had just signed up for Mr KL in the coming session.. Wish me luck and I shall has the forces to continue my workout.."

Oh well, I didn't delete the post when I found out about the post. Instead of that, I just left it there. I know it's something funny, but when come to think about it, it was actually my dream when I was just started my bodybuilding journey. I wished to compete for Mr. KL or Mr. Pahang, and I know I am little bit too arrogant to talk about these wishes.

But when your dream is not big enough for you to dream of, that is not a dream.

Furthermore, I was lost and I couldn't find any way to continue motivating myself in doing any other things else. Perhaps, I gotta thank my friend for "helping" me to scream it out and of course, motivating me in an indirect way.

We often crashed by daily activities until we forgot what do we want to live for. Your dream? Your family? You yourself? But achieving your own dream definitely is one of the check point of your life! Dream big, work hard, work smart, and make your dream comes true.

Perhaps sometimes, we just have to stop, and, stare. What is your dream by the way?

_____________________________

Things are getting odd recently.
Am I the one who is thinking too much here, or is it really happening exactly same as to what's in my mind now.
Should I take it, or should I just leave it this way.
Am I the only one who is feeling groovy here, or you are feeling the same as well.
And I wish to ....

(Please forgive me if I'm telling stuff in an ambiguous way)

Broken Heart.

闭上眼
快乐的回忆只剩残缺

窃笑自己
说失落苦涩难免

想挥别
无法隐藏的 broken heart
为何连呼吸都滚烫

夜荒凉
又难当
像冷冻没温度的床

伤恸累累的 broken heart
紧迫着自己不肯放

辗转过
梦一场
天已亮

词： 古皓

Nightmare and nothing special.

18th November 2012
2.53pm
Raining

Got attacked by some horrible nightmares again.

It has been attacking me, like 3 or 4 times a week. Same content, same message, same people.

Do you think it is some sort of message, from Him?
But somehow whatever it is, I know it's not going to stop anyways, I'm ready for it's another wave of attack.

I believe that, what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger :D
So what even if I'm going to have another similar nightmare tonight? As long as I can wake up by tomorrow morning, my heart will become stronger by tomorrow.

And I gonna fight with all of the negativity!
BRACE YOURSELF!

____________________________________

Duh ._.

I wish my shoulder is wide and big enough to sustain this weight and the increasing pressure of it.
And I know that, strong body comes with a strong mind.

____________________________________

Do you believe in miracle?
*I don't believe in miracle YET*

Confession.

Today, I witnessed a new relationship born! (literally)

Well, it was actually one of my best friends, confessed to the girl and so, he did it!
Congratulations to him and the girl. God bless! God bless!

Something .. Something .. Something .. Somehow .. 

IF
YOU
LOVE 
ME
LET
ME
KNOW
 
You know what, I learned something special today. It was just all about 20 seconds.

All you need is just 20 seconds of insane courage,
And this 20 seconds of embarrassing bravery, will bring something great to you, and it will change your entire life.

And that is confession!

The boy saw the girl when he was passing by the cafe, she was just sitting over there and taking her coffee. And he went into the cafe.
Boy: "Excuse me"
Girl: *smiles*
Boy: "How on earth that such a beautiful woman like you would even talk to someone like me"
Girl: *smiles*
Girl: "Why not"

It's raining and the boy is running to the girl's house. He knocked on the girl's room window and she came to open the window.
Boy: "You know how nuts I am just to say that, I miss you a lot, and hell crazy a lot!"
Girl: "I'm sorry for the rain"
Boy: "I love the rain. I love your hair, I love the signs you made for me, and I love you"

Too young to die.

Saw this quote from somewhere else but I didn't try to understand the meaningful within it.
Just when I made myself a "milo kosong", this quote came into my mind and I am delighted with it.

Milo kosong, it has been my favourite drink since a year ago I guess. Started to drink milo kosong when I started my bodybuilding life cause I love milo and at the same time I had to reduce my sugar intake.
Oh well, there's another girl asked me to drink milo without condensed milk added in ever since 3 years ago but then I ignored her words cause I just simply love milo :D

But what's the main point in this is, all of us tend to make something that we like, become our daily habit, instead of what we should do. You love sweet stuff, you add sugar into it, but without realizing it, you're actually taking your healthy body to bet with the diabetes. Ironically, one of my lecturer told us that "you're going to die anyway, why don't you eat in the moderate way" and some people even telling me that "healthy, simply means that you stand a higher chance, live longer than us". Well of course, I wanna spend more time with my family, friends and the things I love to do.
But can't you see that, when you firstly born to the world, you were the only one who was crying, and people around you were smiling (your mum, dad, doctor, nurses, and some other family members). But when you're gone, all people cry and you're gonna be the only one who is going to smile.
Think of those people that care of you, think of those people who willing to spend time with you, think of those people who love you always like no one else does.

We often emphasize healthy lifestyle, I'll try and define it. Simple terms would be, balanced diet, exercise frequently, enough daily rest, healthy mind and of course, spending time with our lovely family and friends. That's mine, what's yours?

Every morning when I wake up, I have different missions, but regardless whatever it is, always remember that, wake up with inspiration, and go to bed at the of the day with satisfaction.

Don't quit thinking all the time, but do not spend your worthy time on things that are unnecessary. They say you're dead when you stop thinking.

Don't stay in the comfort zone even if you are now just a student. Sharpen your skills, English speaking and writing skills, enlarge your social world, make more friends, read more, see more, and do more. Don't die today.

I am 21 years old and I still got lots of things needed to be done, will try and get my CIMA qualification by age 22/23, wanna achieve my fitness goal asap. Wanna achieve something that I've never tried before, half marathon 21km I suppose ? I got even more stuff wanted to do in my mind now. But I can't finish all in just one day, but at least when I try to do something, I am one step ahead towards my goal. I have to wake up tomorrow, to continue my works.

I am just too young to die today!

Lastly, to all sports lovers, fitness, and also bodybuilders:

Your life, your way.

What makes life beautiful ?

Well I guess the most answers that I would receive from my friends and people around would be, live your life 活出自我

Terms as simple as that, just be yourself, without hurting others.

You are beautiful when you show care, concern, sympathize to those who are unfortunate. You are beautiful when you know how to differentia the good and the bad. You are beautiful when you are smiling together with your family. You are beautiful when you show the real of you.

Not a typical guy who loves to talk about life but my life isn't going great recently.

I love bodybuilding, as it shows how you carry yourself when you are doing workout. You hit yourself hard until you got 10 repetitions with your maximum strength, and you don't give any care just to complete your daily goal. Lots of more craps I gotta talk if I were to proceed with it.

When life gets hard, think of those who have even more difficult and hard life to get on with.

When your life isn't getting what you have wished for, think twice again. Stop wishing and try your best out just to make it possible!

Life with financial difficulties all the time? You gotta stay out of your comfort zone and start to dig some income source or perhaps the best investment would be enhance your skills and knowledge, to get a better job and pay.

Life with haters around? Oh well, haters hate you and you're not happy with it, but let me ask you, what will it benefit you if you were to care about their comments so much. Waste of energy and time. Furthermore, they're not gonna like you in next second, so why bother? As in, your exam papers won't come out with questions like this, focus on the right thing pal!

Life without lover? Oh I love this part. Just love your family and your friends, and live the things you are doing, god will send the right person to you someday. Don't ask me why, it's just simple as that, cause when the time comes, you will know he or she is the right person for you :D

Being a Christian, I have my very own faith of which is my faith is in the God and I shall let the God to lead me to the right path, listen to His advise and things will definitely get better than you ever thought of.

Bullshit? Thoughts? Ideas? It's all depends on how you look and from which side you are looking at.

Lastly, what makes the world so beautiful? Is to accept the differences between you and me, with open-hearted and respect them.

Redefining myself - Peter Goh

It has been 3 years, at least I can say, ever since my last time writing blog.

There are several reasons that triggered my mind to restart my blogging life as I really need a good space to express my feelings and thoughts.

Reasons to restart blogging life ? Nah, not going to talk about this today :D

Anyways since this is my very first post after my resurrection today, I'm gonna start with this thought in my mind, which is REDEFINING myself, Peter Goh. I have lost some of my very own so called own style, and also precious entity within me, which is my positiveness. I'm so confident that, my positiveness is back, and let me to tell you, once it is back, it also means that my ego is back.


Alright, here we go!

Name: Peter Goh

Age: 21 years old (as at November 2012)

Hometown: Mentakab, Pahang

Current status: Single and available

Music: As long as the song or the music is nice.

Artists: Jay Chou, JJ Lin, Linkin Park, One Republic, Big Bang, Backstreet Boys, Westlife.

Love Jesus!

Sports: Bodybuilding, sprinting, basketball, cycling

Badass-kicking-awesome-best-friends:
1. Dumbo aka Chun Hao aka Ah Xiang
2. Doyce aka Jun Khang aka Ah Doi
3. Frankey aka Frankey aka Frankey (-.-)
4. Alex aka Yee Peng
5. Chun Yang aka Cy
6. Hua Qian
7. Seelan bro
8. Lastly, my gymmates!

I'm not a drinker. (Can you imagine how tipsy I can easily get, with only just 2 cans of Carlsberg LMAO)
I'm not a drifter. (As in, I'm very careful in driving, and my close friends can prove that =D)
I'm not a gambler. (Nope, not even during Chinese New Year)
I'm not a cake lover. (Sweet stuff don't really come good at me)
I'm not a candy lover though.
I'm not a gamer. (Play DotA once in a blue moon? Hmmm)
I'm not a cute, funny, handsome, rich, skinny, and tall boy.
I'm not a badass kicker.

I'm lack of sense of humor. (Well sometimes >.<)
I'm lack of sleeping most of the time. (That's why you can find me sleeping inside the class most of the time!)
I'm lack of self-confidence. (When it comes to girls)
I'm lack of skills in tackling girls.
I'm lack of patient when it comes to studies.

BUT!

I'm a person who takes care of my studies seriously!
I'm a person who loves to travel!
I'm a person who loves to hang out with friends!
I'm a person who can bullshit around as long as you can accept my shit :X
I'm a person who can accompany you to do something crazy if you give me the signal.
I'm a person who dares to speak loud in public.
I'm a person who loves to shop as well! (Am I a shopaholic ? The answer is, I love window shopping LOL)
I'm a person who loves to drive car most of the time!
I'm a person who loves to read comics
I'm a person who loves to analyze.
I'm a person who loves to read about facts.
I'm a person who needs friends' companion most of the time.
I'm a person who loves my family the best.

They say, I'm good in remembering routes and places
They say, I'm noisy when my friends are around
They say, I'm a quiet boy when someone whom I don't know, sitting around me and my friends.
They say, I always do stupid stuff (According to my best friends!)
They say, I snore every night.
They say, I hardly fall.
They say, I'm strong and tough.
They say, I'm a lazy-ass.

As many shits as you know about me, you don't know about me yet until you say hi to me and hit me with your big smile!