Woke up from the same dream again, it's the another same situation as if the dream might take your breath away anytime.
You started to think of her again.
The scenes replay again.
You are being pulled down into the sea of depression again.
This, I gotta make a statement for it.
Everyone has his/her own most loved person in the mind, your ex, your current or you are still waiting for your most loved.
This doesn't mean that I am still in love with her, it was actually just "the sense of attachment" to your most intimate part of your body, soul and mind, and it's still lingering in your heart.
I fell asleep at 9pm. I didn't hang out with friends for movie "Dracula" as I've already watched it earlier.
Later a friend of mine called to wake me up at around 12.30am to go out for "lim teh"
I felt sleepy and a little bit of mood swing cause a person's emotion is most easily to be affected right after a short nap.
Yes I drove out to Taman Rimba to join my friends. The roads, were so familiars and memories started to hit in harder and harder as I passed by every junction.
I rolled down the door windows and chilling night wind blew on my face. It was so sharp, memories in this cold night could eat you up as the road seemed to be endless.
I constantly used my hand to rub my hair just to make sure I'm still in good conscious to drive.
/ let bygones be bygones / they said, how can you tell them that all these are bygones while the memories are living so real in your mind every single day?
But .. I did it ..
I made it through ..
It wasn't easy, but I'm glad I did it ..
Yes I am ready to love someone else, again!
